Lyrics

I know the winter’s gone
The flowers bloom again
But still the storm clouds roll
And in my heart it’s dead

A mustard seed of faith
Must die before it grows
And growing pushes things
And cracks the soil within

My God, my God, do not abandon me
Don’t let this seed be hidden from your light
Bring me back to life
Grow me into a masterpiece

Yeah, change is always hard
But if I stayed the same
Your fruit would never grow
No harvest could be reaped

Lord, why can’t life be easy
No, I don’t understand
Why things are always changing
How this could be your plan

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I’m here in the tension of what was and what could soon be
But right now I’m broken, surrounded by uncertainty
Oh, don’t let me, don’t let me go
Help me, oh teach me to know
If I don’t change, then I’ll never grow

Interlude

Chorus (2x)

A deep breath in, a deep breath out
When did the voices get so loud?
In my head it’s spinning round
I’m standing on the precipice
Well, I can’t help but feel like this
When everything’s fading out
Surrounded by myself

Windows and mirrors, they’re both only glass
But one of them scares me to death
The future is scary, and so are my failings
It’s like a tornado that never stops raging
I’ll suffocate soon if I don’t turn away
If I look out the window, I might be ok

I’m looking up and looking down
It’s all so messy all around
Alone in the silent sound
There’s no way to escape myself
But you’re in me, and no one else
Can answer my cries for help
Tear my focus off myself

Windows and mirrors, yeah, one shows the truth
The other one only reflects
My flaws are distracting, my pride overwhelming
A fight for attention that never stops waging
I’ll never have peace ‘till I forfeit and say
That I’ll look out the window, and I’ll be ok

Oh, I’m scared to mess up, and I’m scared to confess
That maybe my life isn’t perfect
’Cause I do it all, yeah, I scale every wall
But pride comes before a fall
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Windows and mirrors, yeah, one causes worry
The other one leads me to you
I love how you made me, and how you’re remaking
The world to reflect you the way it’s supposed to
And I don’t see progress in every day
So often I cry, why’d you plan things this way?
I lift up my eyes, though I weep, and I say
I will look to my savior, and I’ll be ok

I’m questioning your goodness
Can you see that I’m alone?
I’m questioning your promise
Is the future all your own?
I have so many questions
And no one has the answers

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When I don’t see your face
I’ll look around and find your grace
When things don’t go as planned
Don’t make it hard to see your hand
I know my prayers are heard
’Cause every little bird,
You’ve kept them safe and warm
And you won’t do me harm

I’m feeling less uncertain
Now I feel you by my side
I’m feeling less deserted
Since from you, I cannot hide
I still have lots of questions
But you have all the answers

Chorus

’Cause it’s been decided
Before I was made
It’s all been written
So I won’t be afraid
Resting in your goodness
I know peace

I’m dwelling in your faithfulness
You have loved me from the start
I’m learning how to trust you
With the questions of my heart
And I don’t have the answers, but I don’t need to see
’Cause you’re my guide, my shepherd
And you take care of me

Chorus